The Meandering Mind of a Happy Farmwife

 I am Not a Quitter "If you can dream it, you can do it"  We all have heard this quote. Most believe it was Walt Disney that said it, but truth be told if you look it up, it was first used in the 1980's in a General Electric recruitment campaign, penned by an author by the name of Cherylyn Silverstein.  But let me just say whomever said it, it is the best quote ever. Ok, maybe not EVER, but it is a very good quote. We all have dreams and aspirations, but how many of us go for it? How many of us actually dream it then make it a reality? I would venture to say, very few.  I believe I am an average person as far as the normal human scale. I would say that most everyone has a dream or desire to do something awesome, but I also believe that most of us let fear of failure stop us. I won't get on that old story you have heard bits of for a while on here about my memoir I wrote about my brother, and how publishing was halted by my family without them even reading it, ending ...

  Honesty My sweet granddaughter recently has taken to saying "you look so honest" or "why do you look so honest?" When she has used this word as an expression she sees, I realized she did not understand what the word " Honest " means. I mean, yes, one can look honest, but when she has used it the meaning wasn't accurate, if that makes sense. Honesty comes easy in some situations and not so easy in others. But the one who sees all knows all, well we have no choice but to be honest with him.  My last post I mentioned how I was really feeling with the new year and how I viewed last year. I mentioned being angry and confused and hurt by how God did things and is doing things in my life and my family.  I think I offended a few of my readers, but let me explain again, if you think God doesn't know how you really feel then you don't know God. (That probably is an offensive comment also, but hear me out) God created each of us and he created us to hav...

New Years Day : When the Storms fog your faith Raise your hand if you make a new year's resolution every year? Studies say that many people do, but only a small portion actually keep them past January. I do not make resolutions, however I do feel this feeling of organizing and beginning with a clean slate. But often I find myself sad on January 1, better word conflicted as to be happy or sad. For me, New Years Day is a hard day. I feel like the day marks a time to close the door to the previous year, and open a new door. This is difficult, so many things happen in a year. Some things are easily left behind, while other things are hard to close out and move forward from. In 2025, many things happened, and if I am being honest, I have to think really hard to see the good in the year.  I know God blesses me, I know I have things to be thankful for from 2025, but I also know that I suffered many hurts and losses in this past year. It is hard to begin a New Year, leaving things behind ...

  ONLY ONE PERFECT CHRISTMAS GIFT Here we are in the midst of finishing up the preparations for Christmas. We are down to the wire now, last days to grab those last few things. As I look at my packages,I have to admit I am a bit disappointed in many of them. In the old days, it was so different. We picked a day, got up early and headed out to the mall and department stores. We had a list of ideas, and separated agreeing on a time a place in the store to meet up. We loved the hiding behind racks when we accidentally ended up in the same department as another family member. When we met up at the time and place, we all looked like the cat that swallowed the canary. Hiding our excitement in what we had purchased for each other as well as the items, was no easy task. We didn't want to give away any hints to what we had found.  This Christmas and most recent years, I have to admit, most of my shopping is done online. Amazon, my go to place to search out ideas I have f...

The Second Empty Nest These last couple of weeks have been difficult for me. I am not one that does well with change, especially changes that can never be reversed should I decide I don't like the new. Most of you that come here and read my writings know me personally, you know my husband and children. I raised two children, both grown and flown. My life was spent being a Mom for those twenty six years. I was fortunate to have been given the opportunity to leave my office manager position to stay home and be a full time mom. I loved being home with them and it was a true blessing. I wasn't a mom that took the job lightly, it was my God given title. We played together every day, I wasn't one that sat and did my thing while the kids played, I was an active participant in all the fun. We had days of the week that we did certain things, like  Tuesday was Library day and on Wednesdays we called a friend and had a playdate, Thursdays we would go see Daddy at work for lunch. If it...

 WHY??????? Have you ever felt like everything was stacked against you and no matter what you did it didn't turn out or you got hurt? Lately, I am overwhelmed, tears coming often as it seems everything I try, falls apart. You been there? do you get me? Let me better explain.  I quilt, I love making quilts as gifts, and I started making them for people to order. But it has slowed down as now the prices of fabric has sky rocketed like everything else in our economy. I was even making quilts not ordered, just to continue doing what I love. I was storing them to one day perhaps have a booth in a craft show and maybe sell them that way. But now I can barely afford the fabrics to make a quilt that will just sit in a box hoping to be sold one day. So, another thing I have dreamed of was to become an author. I wrote a beautiful Memoir about my brother who passed away in 2021 from complications from COVID. My family, who's never read it, caused a big farce and made it impossible for me...