Invisible

INVISIBLE

She stands in a crowd,

yet feels all alone.

Somehow she feels unseen.

So many conversations going on in her head, 

but never does she allow them to escape through her voice.

She holds so much inside,

never wanting to be the problem or the added stressor.

She puts on a smile, while trying to convince herself.

But inside she feels numb, lost, unimportant and unnoticed.

Loved when she is needed, then set aside until needed again.

Her heart used to break, but now it doesn't even feel a thing.

Day in, Day out, she does what she must, 

while fighting the urge to scream.

Everyone is living life, while she feels stuck 

stuck on repeat, stuck in the now, nothing to look forward to,

just the same day after day, year after year.

Love, oh she loves, 

loved, yes she believes she is, 

but there is no sparkle anymore.

She is becoming dull, no glow, no bounce in her step,

seems only days of clouds and no sunshine.

She feels like she is just fading away, 

becoming invisible. 


Be Blessed,

The Happy Farmwife

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