The most common Question, "WHY?"

 WHY???????


Have you ever felt like everything was stacked against you and no matter what you did it didn't turn out or you got hurt?

Lately, I am overwhelmed, tears coming often as it seems everything I try, falls apart. You been there? do you get me? Let me better explain. 

I quilt, I love making quilts as gifts, and I started making them for people to order. But it has slowed down as now the prices of fabric has sky rocketed like everything else in our economy. I was even making quilts not ordered, just to continue doing what I love. I was storing them to one day perhaps have a booth in a craft show and maybe sell them that way. But now I can barely afford the fabrics to make a quilt that will just sit in a box hoping to be sold one day.

So, another thing I have dreamed of was to become an author. I wrote a beautiful Memoir about my brother who passed away in 2021 from complications from COVID. My family, who's never read it, caused a big farce and made it impossible for me to publish it. One family member even accused me of trying to make money off of his death. I don't know if you all know this, but "starving Artist" is not wrong, a writer does not make big money. The only way an Author makes a substantial amount is maybe if they are a BEST SELLER. I do not think I was going to reach "best seller" status on my first book a memoir about my brother that wasn't a hero to anyone other than me. 

Now I tried to write a fiction, a novel, a young teen style book. I have been working on for months. Suddenly I go in today to start working on it after months of writers block, and I get a warning that I cannot edit or write as I need to subscribe to Microsoft. I am so confused as I have used my Microsoft with my computer for years, I am talking like over five years!!  Now it is saying I have to pay $100 a year to be able to use WORD on my personal, paid for, owned computer.

Why is it that everything cost money. Why do we live in a world where you honestly never fully own anything. 

I write from a place of frustration right now, and I do appreciate you listening.

Respond if you also feel like the world has gone mad with all this money, money, money. It is heartbreaking that no one can even have hobbies anymore unless they have money. The cost of living keeps going up, as workers keep asking for raises. Their greed is making it impossible for the rest of us to afford anything.

I might not make friends in this post, but when workers keep wanting more, the only way businesses can give the employee more is to charge higher for their products and services. It is a never ending cycle.

Raise your hand if you wish we could go back to the good old days. When family time was more important than a paycheck. When you worked to pay the bills, not to be showy with having top dollar things. When you made enough to keep your family fed and sheltered. Let's return to the time when you put more hours in at home with your children rather than chasing a dollar to pay for your over priced groceries, over priced vehicles, over priced homes..... Let's get back to a time when our hobbies were easy to enjoy, our creativity could be expressed without paying some big wig sitting on their behinds with hands out taking and taking!!

WOW!! I may have went all over the place with this one, but hey, it is my blog and well, I share everything from my meandering mind.

Be Blessed!

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