The Meandering Mind of a Happy Farmwife

I sit silent in this room alone, yet there are several people around me. I’m looking at each person, noticing the way they smile, the way they move, the way they laugh. Their confidence is beautiful. I can see so much beauty in others, and struggle to see the beauty in myself. But then I am reminded that beauty is not about outward appearances. Being kind is beautiful, I used to always be kind. Smiling at strangers, holding doors for others. I look back at the younger me in photos and I see a bright smile, a friendly personality, but mostly a kind heart. And I think, have I allowed this world to change me?  I ponder that and things come to mind, like the time I mentioned to a lady at the grocery store how “pretty she looked in her red coat”. She looked at me like I was a weirdo and walked away. The time I was at the park and a mom was struggling with an upset child, she looked up making eye contact with me, so I smiled and said “Don’t feel bad, I’ve been there.” If looks could kill...

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